Here Is What The UVA Student Behind The Rolling Stone Article Wrote About A Friend She Had A Crush On

Chuck Ross Investigative Reporter
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The Daily Caller has obtained a previously unpublished email purportedly written by Jackie, the University of Virginia student who claimed in a Rolling Stone article that she was gang-raped by seven fraternity members on Sept. 28, 2012.

In the email, Jackie wrote about her romantic interest in a friend of hers named Ryan Duffin. Duffin was forwarded the email on Oct. 3, 2012 by a man named Haven Monahan, who Jackie claimed she was going out on a date with on the night she says she was raped.

“When you like someone more than he likes you, you’ll do anything to switch the scales,” Jackie wrote about Duffin.

It was Duffin who Jackie first called on the night she claims she was raped. Duffin, who showed up to help Jackie along with two other friends, has said that Jackie claimed that night that she was forced to perform oral sex on five men at a fraternity house.

That story changed drastically in the Rolling Stone article, published last month, in which she claimed she was brutally beaten and gang-raped by seven members of Phi Kappa Psi fraternity.

The email forwarded to Duffin, titled “about u,” is bizarre for several reasons.

As Duffin has said in interviews, he found it strange that the man who Jackie claimed had been involved in her rape just days before would be sending him an email — especially one of that nature. (RELATED: UVA Gang-Rape Accuser’s Friend Shares New Details In Interview)

Even more strange — as the Rolling Stone article has been debunked, it has come to light that Monahan likely does not exist.

Before she claimed she was raped and after Duffin had rejected her romantically, Jackie gave Duffin and two other friends the phone number she claimed was Monahan’s. The friends began texting with Monahan, who later sent a picture.

It has been discovered since the Rolling Stone article was published that a picture Monahan sent the friends via text message was actually of a man Jackie went to high school with. The phone numbers Jackie gave to her friends were also registered to an Internet website that allows users to send text messages from cell phones. (RELATED: University of Virginia Student’s Catfishing Scheme Revealed)

All of that evidence suggests that the email published below was not actually forwarded to Duffin by a person named Haven Monahan. It is increasingly likely that the email was both written about Duffin and forwarded to him by Jackie.

When asked by TheDC last week whether he believed that Jackie could have fabricated her rape claims as part of a scheme to get his attention, Duffin said “it’s a definite possibility.”

———- Forwarded message ———-
From: Haven Monahan <>
Date: Wed, Oct 3, 2012 at 8:33 PM
Subject: about u
To: “——” <——>

you should read this. iv never read anything nicer in my life.

Well yeah…Ryan is fine. Ryan’s great, actually. I mean he’s smart. He’s attractive. He’s funny. He’s a scaredy cat. If you creep up behind him, he’ll jump right out of his skin. It’s pretty amusing. He’s honest. He always calls them just like he sees them. You can constantly count on getting the truth from Ryan, even if the truth hurts. He has the most incredible taste in music. He’s like this walking, talking music library. And he understands how truly important music is. He’s stubborn. He has this regimented way about him that can be so frustrating sometimes. And sometimes the things he says hurt. But he’s a really, really good friend. And loyal to a fault. He’s realistic about everything. And I’m a dreamer so I mean, it’s good to have somebody like that in my life. He’s one of my best friends here, you know? He’s more than that …he’s everything

So, then there’s Ryan. And Ryan…Ryan’s incredible. I didn’t fall for Ryan Duffin the first day I met him. Nor did I fall for him on the second day or the third day for that matter. But once I did fall for Ryan, you see, my world flipped upside down. Kathryn doesn’t understand what I see in Ryan. I guess I don’t understand what she doesn’t see in him. He’s gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement. More like you’re startled every time you see him because you notice something new in a Where’s Waldo sort of way. More like you can’t stop writing third grade run on sentences because you can’t even remotely begin to describe something, someone, so inherently amazing. More like you’re afraid that if you stare at him too long, you’ll prove your grandparents right that, yes, your face will get stuck that way…but you don’t mind. You, like everyone else, may think I’m exaggerating, but then again, you probably don’t know Ryan Duffin. Ryan has no idea what he does to me…he can make me feel more emotions in one second then I would normally feel in one year. He makes my head spin. And the truth is, I’m crazy about him. I mean, if I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or just sitting in my dorm with him talking about music and watching a crappy TV show…I’d choose him everytime…without a single false step. I know he doesn’t like me. If someone really wanted you, they’d actually put some time and effort into trying to get your attention. Ryan doesn’t even like to be around me sometimes. And that really sucks. When you like someone more than he likes you, you’ll do anything to switch the scales. The thing is, you can’t. You want to tell him how you feel but you know it will end with “It’s just not going to work out.” How can I explain to him that I fell for him because of a million tiny things he never knew he was doing? I know I should just stop trying because he and I are never going to happen. He doesn’t like me, I’m not his type, I’m not the type of person he could ever be with so I should just get over it. The problem is I can’t shake these feelings I have for him, I try so damn hard, but they won’t go away. I can’t move on because the only thing I can find wrong with him, is that he can find so much wrong with me. [Redacted] said I shouldn’t give up. She said she read this quote once that said,” There’s nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it’s sent away.” She claimed that’s how Ryan and I are. I think she’s wrong. I think he was right from the get-go. He’ll never see me as anything more than some girl and it’ll never amount to anything. He told Alex I’m not his type and I’m a waste of his time. The things he says hurt more than you know but still…there’s something about him that makes me come back for more. All I know is, the girl who gets to be with Ryan Duffin is the luckiest girl in the world. And if she doesn’t know that, then she doesn’t deserve him.

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