Diary of a pre-certified teacher, Vol. V: Cancer

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      Augustine Brehon

      Augustine Brehon is a name assumed to protect the author, who is currently receiving his education certification near Washington, D.C.

On Dec. 7, 2008, I was in a hospital in Washington, D.C., wondering how long I had to live. The day before I had admitted myself to the emergency room with abdominal pain that I thought was a pulled muscles. Tests had revealed that I had cancer.

Or at least that’s what they thought. They were not giving me any definitive answers until they got more tests results. So after they took out a piece of tissue from my hip for a biopsy, they sent me back up to my room. Where I waited.

I was relieved. I had felt tired for many months, and now I knew what was causing it. I no longer had to worry about negative tests for depression and chronic fatigue syndrome and hemochromatosis. It was cancer. I just didn’t know what kind or how bad. They suspected lymphoma.

I had just begun a career as a teacher. I had been subbing at Catholic schools while working toward my certification; in fact, I was called to sub by three different schools on the day I landed in the hospital. And part of the reason I wanted to be a teacher was so that I could teach the things they didn’t teach any more. I wanted to teach about the things that reveal the spiritual reality of this world—and that prepare you for death. I wanted to teach about God, about love, about rock ‘n’ roll.

In the last 50 years, we have, as the conservatives like to put it, removed God from the classroom. Liberals have argued, rightly, that teachers should not be preachers. But what our Christophobia has done has been to convince people that there is nothing about religion that has anything to do with knowledge or wisdom. We refuse to acknowledge that religion can in any way offer truths about what it means to be a human being. The only thing that can cause more instant hysteria than a gun in school is a Bible.

In “Foundations of Education,” a course I am now taking toward my certification, we are learning about the history of education in the United States. It comes with heavy doses of white guilt. We routinely get PowerPoint presentations about the mistreatment of minority groups. I’m not necessarily against that; it’s important to absorb the painful reality of America’s treatment of minorities, especially blacks. But during a presentation of the history of black education and the Civil Rights movement, I was saddened but not surprised that something had been left out—the very spiritual force that drove Martin Luther King Jr. to fight for justice. I’m not about to have a come to Jesus moment here. It’s just worth noting that in his “Letter from a Birmingham Jail,” one of the philosophers King quotes is St. Thomas Aquinas. King argued the case for the natural law. These days is dismissed as right-wing religious fascism, but to King, it was the cornerstone of the Civil Rights movement. To Aquinas and to King, the natural law is the law of the conscience, which tells us that certain laws are unjust even if they are legal. It is how King changed history, and why there is a pro-life movement. In his letters, King noted that, citing Aquinas, there are just and unjust laws, and man’s conscience can command him to disobey unjust laws.

In my “Foundations of Education” class we learn such King quotes as “injustice anywhere is injustice everywhere.” But we take them out of context or avoid the greater truths that they point towards. In that quote, King was talking about the common creed, history and geography that binds Americans together: “I am cognizant of the interrelatedness of all communities and states,” he wrote. “I cannot sit idly by in Atlanta and not be concerned about what happens in Birmingham. Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere. We are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. Never again can we afford to live with the narrow, provincial ‘outside agitator’ idea. Anyone who lives inside the United States can be considered an outsider in its bounds.” King wasn’t talking about going around the world spreading the gospel of Planned Parenthood and the do-gooder left. He was talking about healing the American family.

  • karenndkitchen

    Thanks for your thoughtful article, and happy for your recovery.

  • qofdisks

    “Christophobia ”
    The problem with teaching Christianity in schools is that not only are there students of other religions in schools but there are so many different brands of Christianity. Which one do you teach? The task of spiritual development is given to the parents. Unfortunately, so many parents are fundamentally unconscionable consumers. I am an atheist, secular humanist. Having been baptized Catholic and was raised in the Pentecostal Church and having a B.A. in world religions, I have a foundation to make my choice. It wasn’t until I became a mother that I saw the necessity to return to regular church attendance for my child’s sake. Although I am an atheist, he is entitled to make up his own mind based on a solid foundation of religious training. He has already made a survey of Islam, Buddhism, Asutru, Judism and Christianity. He is 10 years old and already has a well developed consciousness. We attend an Episcopalian church and he is a believer requesting his own baptism and partakes of the Eucharist. This was my contrivance as I do not want him susceptible to Charlatans later in life proselytizing that they are somehow channeling God’s will on earth.
    It is not a Liberal notion to be anti-Christian. Liberals attend the churches in droves. Liberals may just have a different interpretation of God’s intentions for our spirituality. Religious Liberals believe in the social justice of separation of Church and State; they take to heart the notion that true people of God are separate from the world as prescribed in the Bible. Liberals take the relationship with God to be a very personnel covenant entered into willingly. The coming to God by free will is crucial to Liberal religious belief. Liberal Christians pray in their closet and do not presume to impose their faith on others. Do not presume that just because Liberals do not “wear their religion on their sleeves”, that they are
    I suspect that the most evil kind of secularism that you fear is actually perpetuated by corporate commercialism in our society as gratification and consumption replaces all other motivations and drives. You are looking in the wrong direction blaming Liberalism for the degeneration we see all around us.